when he first touched me

I felt something

I had never felt before,

different than lust

different than affection

and

even stronger than love.


and when he touched an another

I felt something,

something I never thought

I would feel,

different than a heart-break

different than jealousy

and

even stronger than agony.


he keeps touching her now

and I am numb

like I have never been before.

but the good thing is

I can no longer feel

the heart-break

that was killing me.